r.i.p

Just wanted to say thanks to every person who called today or came over.. you made this day better just by showing your support... 29/3 will always be a day to grief .. r.i.p :(

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He was like my second dad... she is like my second mum... When he passed away a big part of me also did... If she passes away I don't think I'll be able to handle that...

You have always been here for me and my family... every birthday you would make sure I got what I wanted, every day you would make me happy and full of joy.. when my mum had noone she had you... Since day one life hasn't treated you nice but as the angel you have always been you never lost faith, you never gave up on hope and you never stopped loving those around you.

I love you, I love you, I love you and that is why I'm holding on to hope right now.. hoping for you to get better, wishing all this pain you have could just go away...

Last year I was hoping for someone else, wishing for someone else and tomorrow it will be exaclty one year since I lost him... I miss you, I miss you, I miss you...(F)

Älskar dig Gubben:D

Thnxx habibee 3a a7la kazdooora(K)

Vart lite nere idag så min bror som ee BÄST tog ut majj... fick maj o må skiit bra.. verkligen jag har dem bästa bröderna man någonsin kan önska sig.. without you guys I would've been lost. Love you

I miss you

I was going to meet up with Rajpar today but I couldn't so I had to cancel but we'll do it on another day:)... Rasta was so stupid today loll, made me laugh the shizz off:P .. anyhoo the day keeps approaching and I can't help but feel miserable but I had a long walk today.. three times.. it helped.. a bit... xoxo

Good day

Todayy I got an assume call from lebanon:D hehe... hope we could've talked more though habbol... I also saw george which made mee soo happy because I hadn't seen him in a while now and on top of that I ate chinese and had a great time in downtown.. anyhoo I just came back after taking a loong walk outside and it felt so refreshing.. XoXo

Bye habbole tabbole

Welcome back Rajpar! Goodbye Teta!

Rajpar is back and NO noone missed you:P and Teta left for Lebanon and omgg gonna miss that chiqita so freaking musho.. habbol mboste w ma tense trou7e 3l grand cafe kill yommm .. ijre fike habbol hatteee yaaa:P ... Have fun but not too much fuun arasso??? anyyongggg

Start Living!

Life has it's way to keep accelerating as I get older. It feels as if the days just keep getting shorter and the only thing growing is my list of promises of what I am going to do, things I never actually do. I always say things like "someday I will" or "I plan on" or my personal favorite "When things get better I am going to"... It's funny because that "plan" never sets off. That "I will" never actually happens. And that "when things get better I am going to" never works because things never ever gets better; when an old problem goes away there is always a new one knocking on your front door. That is why it is up to me to stop pushing things and start acting on them.

Go on now go! Enjoy yourself! If this was your last moment who would you call and what would you say? Do it, call that person, meet that person and be with that person! Make him/her know how special he/she is to you.

I always used to promise a certain friend that "someday" we'll go to lunch together, "I plan on" taking you to that amusement park or "when things get better" I will call more often I swear.
Things never got better and we never did what we planned. Now he is gone and all I have left is a pile of "what I could've done" list. So if you don't want your life to be remembered as a pile of "what could've been" start making things happen! Live. Laugh. Love

Enjoy!!

Wuzzu? As you all know habbol rajpar was at the wedding yesterday.. yuup he slaved as much as he could there (obviously I have taught him nothing) .. anyhoo since he was wearing hindi clothes I asked him to send pics. LOL he made his cousin stop in the middle of the road to take pics and send them to me so here they are so you can see them.. and also two pics of my adorable friend hassoobi .. enjoyy and visit her blog http://www.hassobii.blogg.se/

Learn from your downs

"Life is a struggle with ups and downs, well enjoy the ups learn from the downs and rise higher" A really great friend commented this on my last blog entry... such wise words from such a non-wise guy... But he is right! One should enjoy the ups and learn from the downs so that is my advice to all of you out there... anyhoo Ripper jävla Roo is now in London and his brother is having the wedding tomorrow and I can't wait to see some pics:P:P XoXo

Take me away...

...Into the unknown

"Jag vill bort! Bort från allt! Ensam! Vill vara ensam! Konstigt? Det är så jag känner just nu.. ta mig härifrån!"

Saying sorry?

Today a friend got mad and I don't know why... as far as I know I didn't do anything wrong but that friend is still madly upset. I want to say sorry but I can't because I hate saying sorry when I haven't done anything to be sorry about... Anyways that's the reason for me being upset right now because I wish people could just be frank about why they're upset instead of just shutting the other person out!!

Finally!

He. Said. HV!!
Ripper Jävla Roo me so proud.. I'm teaching you well am I not? Lolzz habbol:P ... XoXo

I want sleep!

Wuzzup? These couple of weeks my insomnia has been worse than ever... I really can't sleep, even though I sometimes go to bed early!! What do I do? because I really am getting tired of this... Yesterday I went to bed really early, like at twelve or something but I couldn't fall asleep before 4-5... I kept tossing and turning.. thinking... Yukhh my brain is worn out.. Ottokaji?

Guthenburg

Wuzzup? Today has been assume; I woke up really early to take the train to Guthenburg with Mandy and it was a load of fun!! Guthenburg is truly an amasingly beautiful city but still not a city that I could ever see myself living in because I'm not the type who is fond of living in the big cities. I like to live in a town with familiar faces all over, I hate heavy traffic and I don't know I just don't like to live in big cities... What do you think? Big cities in or out?

Congrats

Assumeness!! Mohamad Ramadan got top 1!! Totally deserves it bb, congrats.. XoXo

Have fun in Britian!

Ripper jävla roo is going to Britian soon because his brother is getting married and I just wanted to say I'm gonna miss you! NOOOT! :P:P haha no but seriously I hope you have fun.. even though you were TWO HOURS LATE today... next time we say let's meet at twelve COME AT 12!! ... oufttttt ...

Anyways today was really fun, I met up with him, teta and Jandi after having a crazyy day with Kalmar, Sofie and Anna. XoXo

So.Over.This.Shit!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So. Freaking. Tired.

I'm tired of people telling me what to do, how to act and who I should keep in my life.
But do you know what I'm more tired of? Of the people who keep telling me that I don't care and I don't ask about them when they're no better themselves! Or when people tell me they understand how I feel and what I'm going through when they actually really don't... they don't!. Or when they make mistake after misstake after misstake its okay but as soon as I do one tiny mistake it's the end of the world. Like get over yoursleves please...
But probably the most annoying thing is that in the passing of one week 5 people have told me that I've changed haha I've changed? I'VE CHANGED????? Like what the hell? Maybe you should look at yourselves in the mirror a little bit closer and then tell me who has changed! Or you know what? Don't.. just don't because I'm over this shit! Seriously I'm so over it.

Living in the past

I always used to say don't live in the past but these couple of days all I can do is go back to that year... To those memories... I miss all of you and I miss the happiness you brought into my life, the love you brought into my heart and the smile you brought to my lips... XoXo

Ripper Jävla Roo; me so proud!

Abbas, Ripper Jävla Roos brother, is getting married and Ripper Jävla Roo just finished the speech that he is holding on that night. I just read it and it was EPIC. Freaking Epic, why? Because it was so evaal.. Seriously ripper jävla roo; I never thought that you had it in you to be eval and also pull a good joke but in that speech you have like 20 of them. Assumeness! I wanted to share the speech with you but stupid copy paste isn't working so I told myself that I'd write it again here but then I realised that I'm too lazy. Anyhoo still wanted to say congrats to him for taking the first step into evalness and hopefully with my guidance you will one day be half as eval and smart as me! XoXo

Remembering

I had just come back from Lebanon when it was time for the annual "Fallens Dagar" here in Trollhättan... We went to see E.M.D perform their A-mazing songs (L.O.V.E MY DANNY :P) and to see the midnight waterfalls and fireworks.. Anyhoo I'm telling you this because I was just with bebis fofo and hassobii and we saw some old picz from then that I'm gonna upload.. and a video..

We could barely see anything because of the people infront of us but it was better than nothing !!

Standing under the fireworks was so much fun and being with you guys made it better (L) love yaa

I want spring to come

6 of Mars. Spring. Yet all I see is snow. I just don't get it.

All of you prbably know how mych I love snow and the first snow of the year is always my favorite but plzzzz be gone already!!! GO AWAY!

I mean even though I love snow my favorite season of the year is still the Spring... I just love it, EVEN the part where I wake up to those damn stupid happy birds singing. I L.O.V.E spring and hence you can understand if I'm going crazy thinking that I might not be able to enjoy my last spring here in Sweden.

I wanna go out without a jacket, I wanna wear all the heels I bought, I wanna sit outside in the sun... There's so much stuff I wanna do but I can't when the snow is 1 meter high!

Anyhoo have a good saturday night! XoXo

Hwaiting

Wuzzup sweets?

I've been such a bad updater, I know, but trust me I'm gonna be a bad updater no more!

I woke up this morning feeling like a whole new person.. I don't know how or why but I feel really happy and satisified.. my mood hasn't been this good in a long time and the time I had at the university was a BLAST!

Some fights happened here and there but nothing could ruin my mood today; even maryama was surprised... And it made me thinking that this day being a good one wasn't because good things happened.. it was because I decided to make it a good day.. I did everything with a smile on my face being genuinly happy.. and by that KABOM the day was assume because I made it that way!

I don't even know if you're getting antyhing from my rambling but my point is: Take charge over your life! Live it! Smile no matter what and trust me you will feel better... it's all about psychology:P:P

Oh and one last thing: teta just finished writing her first novel so congrats hunzz you have worked hard to bring me the pleasure of reading something epic! XoXo

Answers

1. Is there anythig you have done in your life that you regret, if so what it is?
Answer: I've made plenty of mistakes.. do i regret them? I always say that one shouldn't regret anything because we all learn from our mistakes (if we're not il stupido) and regretting them wont bring the past back.. but there are still some things i wish I could have done differently.. one of those is that I wish I had visited my uncle (r.i.p) more in the hospital, sure regretting doesn't help but I can't help regretting...
2. wich animal would you choose to be if you could decide and why?
Answer: Pink dancing rabbit of course.. why? because it's pink dancing rabbit:P
3. 1 Who is your rolemodel?
2 which person in your life are you proud of the most?
3 describe yourself in three words
4 ketchup or mustard?
Answers: 1. Myself? :P naa just kidding.. I actually don't think about that.. There are people I admire but none I consider my rolemodel.
2. That would probably be my mum, I'm proud of a lot of people that I have in my life, but my mum would be the one to take that price
3. Only three words? hmm.. evaal, crazy and the best liar in the world
4. Ketchup of course, bebis you're the only one in the world who prefers mustard!!!
4. 1 How many times have you hurt someone deeply?
2 how many times have you been hurt deeply
3 forgive and forget?
4 where do you see yourself in ten years?
Answers: 1. Unintentionally? I don't know, probably many times.. Intentionally twice
2. Damn such serious questions.. hmm..a lot of times.. by friends and relatives.. yeah there's a whole list of that.. so yeah many times!
3. I don't know if I'm the right person to be asked that.. I don't believe in forgive and forget.. I don't think that you can ever forget something that has happened to you.. I also believe that one can never be able to forgive someones action but you choose to forgive the person because you choose to give a secoond chance.. if you are able to of course!
4. Hm.. I actually have a picture in my mind... I'll be living in my dreamhouse (yeah I actually have one.. lol:P) .. I would have finished my two books, one of them will be made into a drama which I will direct.. I would own my own cafeteria/resturaunt with teta and she would have been the designer for it... That's how far I've thought.. haha:P
5. Tell me somthing I don't know about you?
Answer: Something you don't know? Thats hard... can't think of anything right now.. or maybe Im just a big fat liar muahaha:P:P