Not a good day

Just had my first midterm and I'm furious!! I had just turned in my exam when I realized what a mistake I had made in one of the questions. Not even a second had passed since I had given him the answer sheet so I told him please I just remembered something can't I fix it? And that **** refused. I'm so upset because I really deserve an A in this course and the question was so lame I could kill myself for making that kind of mistake! Kill me now! Buuuh

Kantarell pasta

I know I haven't updated my blog today but I've just had so much studying to do for my midterms. And I still have tons left so I won't be blogging anymore today. Anyways I thought it would be a good idea to post a picture of the yummy pasta my sister made yesterday!! Enjoy! Well you won't get to enjoy of course BUT I sure as hell did. xoXo

Joey

The food was great! I also just finished watching friends and I can't state enough how much I love the character of Joey. Not only because he's amusingly funny but because what a true friend he really is. And cute hah. But seriously I don't think there is a friend like him in real life. Don't get me wrong, I do have good friends in my life. It's just that this character keeps me in awe after every episode by the little things he does for his friends, not to mention the big things. Speaking of good friends. My not so very good friend (I shall kill her) thinks my memory is so bad she had to write on my hands for me to remember which hand you put your ring on when you are engaged or married. I mean, my memory is perfectly fine!! Anyways I'm off now to help my sister cook "kantarellpasta". No one makes it as deliciously as she does! Until then, XoXo

Stupid Elevator

Didn't get much sleep because I woke up from mummy being stuck in the elevator. poor sweetheart was panicking which is a lot better than what would've happened to me. I would've fainted. Seriously. Anyways I couldn't fall back to sleep because she asked me to make the dinner today so I have to run off to TSC and get meself some stuff. So off I go now XoXo

Sleepy...

What's up sweet loyal fans of mine? I just came back from my university and it's been an exhausting day. So I'm just gonna jump into my bed and sleep until it's time to eat. Until then, you know you hate loving me Xoxoo

Just take it and Go

We'll start with Forever

I'll hug you and I'll forever tell you that everything will be Fine.

Just Great

I had tons of studying done today which is great! Just great! It helps that I absolutely l.o.v.e what I'm studying. This had been a dream of mine for so long and I seem to forget that sometimes. I forget to be thankful over the fact that I'm doing what I've always wanted to do and that I'm actually really good at it too. I hope all of you out there are also following your dreams. I'm taking a pause now because Ellen and Friends are on soon. BTW the weather is really nice today. Have I stated enough how much I adore this country? Well I adore this country! Lhamdulilah. Oh and only 3 hours left until I get to eat. Mum made lobya. Yummy. Xoxo

Too early?

Morning! I slept really well tonight but I keep waking up early which is not so well at all. Anyways today is the first day of Ashoura. At a time like this, I wish I was in Sweden because everything feels more real over there during this time of grief. Which is weird because I had counted on the opposite to be true. Anyways I'm off now to study a bit! Yes, believe it! XoXo

Off to bed

Still no study. I even managed to write some more in my book but my brain refused to do any work on what I really really should be doing. Studying. I know I know it's wrong. Specially since I'm aiming high this semester. But I promise tomorrow I will get a lot of work done. I hope. Problem is I will be fasting now during Ashoura so I will probably be extra lazy. Yiish I am so complicated am I not? Anyways enough blogging for today I'm gonna make myself some food now and watch movies until I fall asleep. Evil dreams, evil fans of evil me! XoXo

Ashoura

Let us imagine Imam Hussein (a.s) on the ground of Karbala. Children had been murdered, his friends; brothers had been slaughtered, with counted minutes left until they would take his head and put a spear through his chest. Let us imagine how they would then attack their tents to burn it all down and take with them all they could find, including the women. Zeinab and Umma kolthom and Sokayna. Let us imagine those last counted minutes and remember what Imam Hussein said to God. Let us remember what they did, what they sacrificed, so Islam could live on. Let us remember Ahlul Bayt each time we want to curse our luck. They had refused to follow the lead of Yazid and the murderers like him. The same murderers who neglected the fact that this great man was the son of Imam Ali (a.s) and there wasn't a chance he would ever think of being like them. The son of Batoul got a letter telling him that he and his family would be alright as long as they did what Yazid wanted. Our Imam yelled out saying that's impossible. "madam fiya rou7 wi7yat il jalil mabbayi3 hayk kafra wa mojrmin" Let their courage, the courage of the greatest people through history, be an example for all of us. An example to follow!

Who run the world? We do

Yummy Yummy today I made a really good chicken with rice and tabboule. Okay my auntie made the tabboule, but I stood beside her making sure she got it right!! I would've taken a picture of it but I didn't wanna make y'all too jealous of my cooking abilities! See, and they say I can't be nice! Bad news though, I haven't had time to study. Okay I had plenty of time but me am too lazy, ottoke? Well off I go now to spend some quality time with the best ladies in the world. Xoxo

Love & Other Drugs

Morning Sunshines!! Yesterday went as planned: it was a quiet night with me watching "Love and other drugs" again. It's so good I could watch it a million times. If you guys haven't seen it yet, then put it on your to-do list! Hmm what else? Yeah me and my friends were supposed to spend this Saturday in Faraya since the snow has arrived over there! But we re-scheduled it since I have my midterms and I really need to study. Hope you'll be spending your day as lame as I will. XoXo

Girl's night in

Today's been loads of fun with me going all crazy with my friends at the university. But all this fun isn't keeping me from counting the days until my whole family is reunited in Sweden! I really can't wait! As for tonight, it's probably going to be a quiet one. My cousin is sleeping over so we're staying at home this Friday night. Maybe watch a movie or something. What's your plans for tonight?

Season's may change, Winter to spring, but you will still have me til the end of time

This week on the X-factor they had thanksgiving week. Each contestant chose the one person they are most thankful for and dedicated a special song for them. Drew picked her childhood friend. Astro picked his fans. Chris picked his therapist. Thinking about who I would've chosen wasn't a hard thing; not a hard thing at all. I pick the one person whom I know will always be by my side just like she always has. You, my bebis, my best friend. We've cried together, laughed together and fought the world together. Now we are conquering Lebanon together and I couldn't have chosen a better partner in crime. You are the one who has never let me down even when I let you down. You are my baby sister yet here I am day by day learning from you. Trying to be a better person thanks to you. You make me who I am with your belief and unconditional love, with your tears if I as much as get a sad face, with your claws if someone as much as tries to hurt me. Thank you. Thank you for keeping me sane. Thank you for always standing up for me. But most of all thank you for letting me know that no matter what I at least have one person who will make sure I am never alone. For better and for worse.

And as for the song I would dedicate: Tio små apor! Now sing with me bb :D

Seizing all my days

Busy Busy Busy

Aaah so little time so much to do! I'm having a really hard time keeping up with everything. But that's okay since being busy is what I need right now! The funniest thing happened today at uni when a girl wanted to stab me after she saw her boyfriend talking to me. Like wth?! What's wrong with these girls? Well it served well for my amusement but other than that I just find it weird, I mean I won't eat him you know? Anyways almost a month left until Sweden! YeeeY

With or Without you

Isn't it funny when you plan something with the closest people to you only to find out coincidently that the plan will be carried out without you. My reaction was "okay so I guess I'll scratch that off my list". I mean I could've atleast been told something instead of reading about it. I'm not going to let that stop me though. Even if it means I'll do it alone I'm doing it. Anyways since I decided to start afresh and be a better me I've become spontanious, doing things out of the blue and I'm actually having a blast. It's been two really fun days but what is even better is that two days ago I made the yummiest swedish dinner ever. I know I know I'm the best cook evaaa!

Right here. Right now.

Trying to be the better person stops right here right now! Blaming myself for everything that happens stops right here right now. Settling for less of what I'm worth stops right here right now. Thinking about the past stops right here right now. This is the day I stop looking at or thinking about anything related to my past. Right here. Right now.

Stopid Stopid Stopid

I went. I watched. I swore. Then I watched some more. Only to swear some more. The End. The swearing wasn't against the movie (which I actually loved) but against the stupid lebanese people who can't watch a movie without applauding at every scene. Like WTH?
So since they ruined the movie for me I'm going on tuesday to rewatch it. This time if I hear anyone applauding there will be blood involved. Plenty of it.

I do have an Angel and that Angel is Yoo

Thank Yoo Bobbo

Warm me up chocolate

Yup it's as yummy as it looks. Well yummier with the wipcream but I already drank half of it before taking the picture!

Stupid Cold

Yeaah I've been hit yet again! AArghh the worst thing is that my colds aint ever normal colds that pass over after two three days. Nope my luck has made sure that each time I get a cold it's one that just refuses to leave me. So the wedding on saturday is a no-no! Hope you all out there also catch this cold! You wouldn't want me to be miserable all by myself would you? Xoxoo

Always and Forever

Yeeeey LEBANON <3 I didn't actually have faith in them but they really really won! I wanted to go see the game but I couldn't because everyone had classes and today they decided to be "good students" WHERE'S DA LEBANESE SPIRIT PEOPLE? Anyways bad luck for the koreans you're still in my heart but Lebanon always numba one! Always and Forever...

Breaking Dawn Part 1

Only days left until the big premiere of our all time favorite love story. We all are planning on going to the midnight screening on friday but question is if I can actually wait that long? Re-reading the book has made me want to watch it even more and then the trailer has given me incredible hopes that this time this movie will do what the three before it failed in. Crossing my fingers here! Anyhoo if you hadn't booked your ticket yet make sure you do it. This is a non-miss!

It's you It's you It's all for you

"I'm Sorry for loosing my temper the night you told me Luis proposed to you. I'm Sorry for not waiting longer at the Empire State Building. I'm Sorry for treating you like property. I'm Sorry I didn't tell you I loved you when I knew I did. But most of all I'm sorry that I gave up on us and you never did..."

No Kids Allowed

Friday night I went to sleep over at my cousin's place and let me just point out HER KIDS ARE CRAZY! Made me yet again realise that I never ever wanna have kids of my own. Yuup I'll just adopt fully matured kids! Anyways I came back to Beirut yesterday night realising that I have A LOT of studying to do. So that's how I'm spending my sunday: studying. Or atleast I'll try. Don't you dare lure me outside now! XoXo

Pink pink pink

My sister is having a baby girl! Yuup she was told that the baby in her tummy was a little girl! Ahh it feels like I'm missing everything and that's so sad-- I still hope that she grows up to be devilish just like her auntie even though I won't be around!!

Pinky swear won't let you go. Ever!

Over 3id my cousin came to sleep over since her parents where in Day3a and it was loads of fun. This girl is so crazy and it was just the exact amount of craziness that I needed to lift my mood. 3 days of amasing fun, what more can I ask? Also she took me to this really good italian cafe in Downtown and I had the yummiest pizza ever. And the sauce was soo mmmm.. Weird though was that noone liked it but me. Arwa and BB said it was disgusting. Well atleast they tasted it.. Not like someone else who was too much of a chicken to put it in her mouth (yup malvalita I'm pointing fingers here! he2)!! And yesterday I met someone I hadn't seen in two months and that had been a far too long of a time. Also got the cutest gift ever. Me am naming him Pinky Bobbo.

Choko Choko Choko Me Wants Choko

A few moments ago I commented that I hope to be more than ok and I realised that for that to happen, for me getting the life I want without any exception, I had to give it my all. I should fight for it all. And so should you. But then reality struck... how do you fight for something that isn't fighting for you in retrun? And that's when I realised that's how she felt.. no matter how many times I was told so this was the first time I really comprehended it. Anyways what's done is done but let this be a reminder for all of you out there: when you have something precious make sure it knows it.. not by words but through your actions. And that saying "If you love something let it go, if it comes back it's yours if it doesn't it never was" is full of BULLSHIT. Never let go of what you love. Hold it on for dear life so you'll know that no matter what happens next you did your best. No regrets! XoXo

3id Ad7a Mubarak

I've been absent for a couple of days because I just didn't feel like blogging. Each day is harder than the previous one and I can't help but feeling miserable.. remembering.. thinking what if.. yeah I still think what if even though I thought it would stop after trying again but here I am thinking what if again... Anyways I hope you are all having a good 3id with your family and friends. Make the most of it.. I would if I got the chance.. I miss my family.. I miss my friends.. I miss you.. And in a weird way I miss myself.. yeah I'm positive no one is understanding a word of what I'm saying and that's kind of the point! XoXo