Rawche

It's been raining and storming like crazyy in Lebanon these past few days so yesterday I took the opportunity to go to my favorite place in the world. The day was amasing (apart from the part that it was crazy hard to find a cab) But being there with with

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Smile so life keeps smiling back at you...

Yummy

Konstig bild, jag vet! Men la upp den för att göra reklam åt världens godaste shawarma on earth!! Harkouss !!

Confession

I've always been the girl who preeches about how important it is to be independant. However, somehow lately I've been thinking differently; in another light. I feel exhausted and I have this feeling of WANTING to depend on someone. This feeling is growing inside me day by day and I don't even know why I kind of feel embarrased about confessing this. Maybe it's because I've always seen that not being independant means being weak, that you can't handle things on your own. But the thing is: It's not that I can't do it on my own. I know I can. I just don't think I want to... anymore. XoXo

Såhäär Mycket !

Beebiiis, Jag Saknaar Daj sååååhääääär Mycket !! ÄNDA UPP TILL HIMLEN OCH TILLBAKA ! Ja, REDAN !!

Bebis&Älskling

Bebis&Me

More than sisterly affection...

More than friendly affection...

It's more than any affection you can imagine... She's my Bebis... My lilla söööt

I've had two epic weeks with her.. not nearly enough... and tomorrow she's leaving...

BUT IM NOT CRYING... okaay maybe just a little?

MISSION

In sweden I always lacked sleep because of insomnia. Here I'm not suffering from insomnia anymore. I still aint getting any sleep. Why? Because my dear friend the chicken next to our building (YES a freaking CHICKEN in Beirut) can't shut up! It opens it's mouth at 4 o'clock in the morning and keeps on going til 12. So to my point: I now have a mission. To KILL that chicken. First I need to find it! Wish me luck. XoXo

OVER AND OUT

Todayy I did nothing more than just lazing around in the house. But the night is still young and I'm craving for some crepes. AUB next ?

Cremino

Gr8 day with Teta... Best ice cream and view in the world.. Bebiis, maya, maryama, noonish, hassibush.. everyone miss yooo too much.. U would've loved it there !! XoXo

I'm Alive

Or am I?

It's been months since I last thought to myself "aah I feel like blogging" I just didn't feel like it anymore. And a lot has happened since then. I'm in Lebanon preparing for my new life here and sometimes I ask myself if I made the right decision and I still don't know. Maybe I'll never know. Something I do know however is that if this is a wrong decision, being wrong has never felt more right. Even though I'm complaining a lot cause you all know how much I love to do that I like it here. I really do! I feel like I'm in the right place in the right time in my life. I've never had that feeling before, Usually when I'm in Sweden I want to be in Lebanon and when I'm in Lebanon I want to be in Sweden. But not this time. This time being here feels like the most right thing in the world. The only bad thing is that I miss my family too much. I really really do... Anyhow Im gonna start blogging now about everything I do here and upload pics.. Until then XoXo

Lolz

Crazy? You be the judge!

Soon...

Wonderful day yesterday. No, not wonderful. A-masing. I had the time of my life with the best people I have ever known... Only a couple of days left and I'll be moving, gonna miss you so much, so much it's breaking my heart. XoXo

Bunch of bull

So talk about a long hiatus!
A couple of days ago a very close person to my family passed away and this was another thing that was screaming into my face; telling me how short life was. And I keep saying that to myself and everyone else, don't I? Day after day, conversation after conversation, blog entry after blog entry. I keep preaching about how life is short and we must do the most of it. But do I really do it? No, I actually don't. These days I've had every chance to make a difference and to take a leap of faith but I keep pushing it to later, I keep thinking I'll do it another day. And I can try to say here in this entry now that no more will I keep pushing it. But I know it will just be a bunch of crap. Carpe diem? puh, as if that will ever happen
You know you missed me XoXo

Bebis' birthday

So I told you guys that it was bebis' B-day two days ago and we were supposed to go to strandgatan but we cancelled last minute and stayed home instead until we later in the evening decided to go and eat fast food in downtown and sit at the kanalerna:P .. anyhoo it was a crazy day and here's a video we took.. XoXo

Happy Sweet 16

16 years ago a little devil was born. A devil who makes my hellish life worth living, a devil so sweet it could melt anyones heart. I know what you're thinking; how could a devil be sweet? Well that's because she isn't just any devil. She's my unique devil, my bebis, my everything. My bebis isn't just any sister, she's my best friend, my partner in crime, the light in my darkest days; she's my other half. Bebis nega maniii sarange(K) mwaaaah (Få inte för mycket luft nu, arrasso?!)

Kdrama

I've been really busy lately but I'm never too busy to watch the most anticipated drama: Personal Taste. Like OMG the way that the two leads act gives mee goosebumps. Yaaa Jandi yaaa his tears in this scene are killing meee!!

Insomnia

Didn't get any sleep all night long... Something is bothering me and stressing me out but the thing is I do not know what it is. I just feel stressed out but I can't seem to find the answer to what it is. Is that weird? Well as eval teta puts it: I've always been weird.
Lol Rajpar is at the car convention and he texted me that the jaguar costs 800 000 or something like that. I'm like whuuut? I'll stick with my BMW thank you:P .. Even though I don't have classes today, I'm going to the university to meet up with him and Jandhi... XoXo

Bored

That idyuut Rajpar is going tomorrow to look at his precious cars :P and I'm stuck here studying.. Damn this week has been a hell but one more week left and I'll scream PAAAAAARTY.. hehe:P:P hope you have a hellish time habbol:P

Komawo:)

Morning Sunshines!! Today I woke up by an amasing text that once again proved how great of a friend you are, thank you for always being here habbol :) :) ..
All day and night yesterday I was busy getting songs from youtube.. Finally I know how to do it and it's all thanks to Rajpar thnxx habbol hope you die:P:P
Today is going to be full of studying again and Henna, Maria and Jandi are coming over to study with me but I feel like I'm going to get a cold.. probably because of the lack of sleep, but let's hope I don't get it before my exams. Aja Aja Hwaitingg!! XoXo

FAKE. FAKE. FAKE

Nobody said it was easy... But nobody said it would be this hard!

Did you ever wake up one morning and just did not see the purpose of getting up? I don't mean the feeling that you're too tired to leave bed but the feeling of asking yourself what the hell is the point? Right now I do not see it... Besides getting myself a good education to build my future on I just do not see the point of anything.

Friends I saw as sisters and brothers turned out to be something else. Some did not have the intention to hurt me. Some, I was the actual one who hurt them.. But it was never my intention to hurt anyone.. but I did and I got hurt in return... Then we have those who did it inentionally, the ones who were as fake and plastic as a barbie doll. I will not say anything more than THANK YOU. Last year I thought I had learnt all my lessons when it came to my "friends".. obviously I was wrong. Dead on wrong! But I will be sure not to make the same mistake again!

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Wazza? It's been a while since Teta left for Lebanon and Damn things are empty wihtout that chiqita!! I've been studying like crazy these couple of days, one more week left and I'll be done! Aja Aja!! Not having a phone made me realise how obsessed I was with it, seriously not texting my friends and not being able to call anyone has made ouri life sucky!! Oh one more thing, my laptop is broke!! Isn't that assume?? Kill me now! XoXo

7azze

Broken phone. An essay. 3 books to read. 16 articles to read. 3 finals to study to. A-masing weather! Ottokaji?

Sucky morning

When I first started blogging I told you guys that I had changed majors three times in the course of two weeks. Well Here I am once again wanting, not only to change majors, but also move. I have decided to move to Lebanon and study over there instead. And let me tell you something, it aint easy!! I have spent the whole morning calling, asking, searching... filling in forms and my head is killing me. Anyways wish me hellish luck:P

Amasing!!

OMG. FADY. hehe yesterday Fady was the prime guest at star academy.. I missed it yesterday but today I watched it on waleg... OMG LOOOOVE:P.. Is it just me or does he become more amasing day by day?:P .. XoXo

Song of the day: Ana mich ana

Yay!!

Yesterday when I was talking to rajpar we made a bet about the weather. I told him that the weather wasn't going to be so good and he said it would be shiny. Red bull was on stake so I started hoping and praying for ugly weather to come my way. Since we both are stubborn we couldn't decide who won but he was going to call at midnight so we could crown the winner. But him, knowing he had lost, didn't dare to call. So I won!! Yaay... Besides hoping for bad weather I had a great time with assume people.. XoXo

Miss ya(K)

Wazza crazy readers? Yesterday was a blast.. and again even though the weather sucked we had a barbeque.. Why? Because I'm stuborrn haha.. anyhoo it's two more months until I leave for lebanon!!! Yaaaay:D:D.. I miss everyone soo much; my friends, my cousins (some of them haha:P:P:P).. Miss you, miss you, miss you all(K)(K)... Teta hope you're not having a blast without mee:P:P Hatee yaa

Lee Min Hoo dose!

This morning wasn't so good for me... I was pissed off over the fact that some people can be so blunt about certain things. Just so freaking upsetting! Anyways later on Jandi came over and we watched Personal Taste!!!! LEE MIN HOO SARANGE haha:P:P ... lolzz I could barely hold my breath watching him haha... then we watched a bunch of episodes of hana yori dango.. Komawoo Jandi for ebing the best company I could wish for!! XoXo

Miles away..

I'm miles from where you are and I'm lost.. lost without you.. missing you so:(

Enjoy!!

Another amasing and fun day!! Abbass and aloshi came over to my place with maryama after me and hassobii finished barbequing and we had a game of monopoly.. later on I watched shutter island and had a long walk... Here's some pics from my day.. xoxo

I don't care lalalala

Yesterday was really an amasing day and I had so much fun!! Now when I think about it: the reason I had so much fun was that everything I did, I did it for me and didn't listen to others opinions... I mean when do they listen to me? Anyhoo I started the day with fixing me up because I was going out with my friends but then something happened that made me cancel those plans and all future plans with them haha:P:P ... lolz!! I then went to nushins place to help her with everything but since I thought I was going to siba right after, I didn't exactly have the right clothes to paint. But luckily she had some extra pants and shoes so I borrowed them and we had a blast with maryama! Later on I met up with mehdi and aloshi and we went to the football field and everyone was there: Chinsese people (I knöööw!!!!), laith, george and basically everyone... Me maryama and Hassobii started cheering and we bought them drinks and stuff and really once again I had a blast.. And that's how the day continued on.. with me doing what I love to do.. walks in the rain.. pizza... movies.. dramas.. throwing my phone to a wall haha:P:P .. Anyhoo I hope you're not forgetting to visit ahla hassobis blog : www.hassobii.blogg.se .. XoXo..

Bday

Happy Birthday Jandi Bhat hooney hope u had a good birthday (K) ... I'm so freaking overwhelmed by all the msgs and phonecalls... since yesterday the phone has been buzzing nonstop... Thank you guys and girls for really being the best.. Some msgs were so touching it moved even my heart and I didn't even know I had one... But the best message was from bebis and I just have to post it and share it with you guys:

"Mona mona mona mino. Idag är det den 3 april w ma adrakom ma 3 april. 3 april föddes en liten djävul ma fi atyab men alba. Den 3 april föddes något jag aldrig skulle tänka mig tanken av att leva utan. Och från skala 1 till 10 är du verkligen en 9 (en 10 skulle vara lika bra som mig? Nejj du får inte!!!) Okey du kanske är en 10. Du kanske är den perfekta männsikan jag alltid kommer kriga för att vara. Du kanske är den starka generösa godhjärtade vackra tjejen jag alltid kommer säga till mina barn att se upp till. Men bryr jag mig eller? Nee? Haha MOOOONA GRATTIS JAG ÄLSKAR DIG VERKLIGEN MER ÄN DU ANAR HAYATI INTI TO3ORFI? Nshallah ya rabb du lever i 60 år till (om 59 dör jag så tar det dig ett år för dig att inse att det inte finns någon meing med att leva utan mig och du begår självmord) mwaaaaaaaah(K)(K)(K)(K)"

Rise Again

Namoose is here for a visitt!! :D Yesterday I was sitting with sarsor, Rajpar and Maya when all of a sudden I saw namooose habbole ... Well that was yesterday but today was even more gr8 because I got to spend a lot more time with them and I also went to dodos place with Nush and Petra... Just came back home and I'm looking for something to do, suggestions? XoXo

Song of the day: I want to spend a lifetime loving you

r.i.p

Just wanted to say thanks to every person who called today or came over.. you made this day better just by showing your support... 29/3 will always be a day to grief .. r.i.p :(

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He was like my second dad... she is like my second mum... When he passed away a big part of me also did... If she passes away I don't think I'll be able to handle that...

You have always been here for me and my family... every birthday you would make sure I got what I wanted, every day you would make me happy and full of joy.. when my mum had noone she had you... Since day one life hasn't treated you nice but as the angel you have always been you never lost faith, you never gave up on hope and you never stopped loving those around you.

I love you, I love you, I love you and that is why I'm holding on to hope right now.. hoping for you to get better, wishing all this pain you have could just go away...

Last year I was hoping for someone else, wishing for someone else and tomorrow it will be exaclty one year since I lost him... I miss you, I miss you, I miss you...(F)

Älskar dig Gubben:D

Thnxx habibee 3a a7la kazdooora(K)

Vart lite nere idag så min bror som ee BÄST tog ut majj... fick maj o må skiit bra.. verkligen jag har dem bästa bröderna man någonsin kan önska sig.. without you guys I would've been lost. Love you

I miss you

I was going to meet up with Rajpar today but I couldn't so I had to cancel but we'll do it on another day:)... Rasta was so stupid today loll, made me laugh the shizz off:P .. anyhoo the day keeps approaching and I can't help but feel miserable but I had a long walk today.. three times.. it helped.. a bit... xoxo

Good day

Todayy I got an assume call from lebanon:D hehe... hope we could've talked more though habbol... I also saw george which made mee soo happy because I hadn't seen him in a while now and on top of that I ate chinese and had a great time in downtown.. anyhoo I just came back after taking a loong walk outside and it felt so refreshing.. XoXo

Bye habbole tabbole

Welcome back Rajpar! Goodbye Teta!

Rajpar is back and NO noone missed you:P and Teta left for Lebanon and omgg gonna miss that chiqita so freaking musho.. habbol mboste w ma tense trou7e 3l grand cafe kill yommm .. ijre fike habbol hatteee yaaa:P ... Have fun but not too much fuun arasso??? anyyongggg

Start Living!

Life has it's way to keep accelerating as I get older. It feels as if the days just keep getting shorter and the only thing growing is my list of promises of what I am going to do, things I never actually do. I always say things like "someday I will" or "I plan on" or my personal favorite "When things get better I am going to"... It's funny because that "plan" never sets off. That "I will" never actually happens. And that "when things get better I am going to" never works because things never ever gets better; when an old problem goes away there is always a new one knocking on your front door. That is why it is up to me to stop pushing things and start acting on them.

Go on now go! Enjoy yourself! If this was your last moment who would you call and what would you say? Do it, call that person, meet that person and be with that person! Make him/her know how special he/she is to you.

I always used to promise a certain friend that "someday" we'll go to lunch together, "I plan on" taking you to that amusement park or "when things get better" I will call more often I swear.
Things never got better and we never did what we planned. Now he is gone and all I have left is a pile of "what I could've done" list. So if you don't want your life to be remembered as a pile of "what could've been" start making things happen! Live. Laugh. Love

Enjoy!!

Wuzzu? As you all know habbol rajpar was at the wedding yesterday.. yuup he slaved as much as he could there (obviously I have taught him nothing) .. anyhoo since he was wearing hindi clothes I asked him to send pics. LOL he made his cousin stop in the middle of the road to take pics and send them to me so here they are so you can see them.. and also two pics of my adorable friend hassoobi .. enjoyy and visit her blog http://www.hassobii.blogg.se/