Guess Who's Back

Khiam was actually not that bad! But let me tell you; it's good to be home. While I was there I had some kind of a bump in the road if I could call it that. I questioned my stay in Lebanon as all the people around me also did. I started thinking about what I really came here for. Was it really independance? Because I ended up living with my mum but I'm still here. So, Why am I? It's not becasue of anyone because there's no one left holding me back to this place and it's not becasue of fear of what others would think because frankly, right now, I couldn't care less. I can't explain it, but somehow it feels right. When I am walking the streets of beirut it feels right. When I am in the cab listening to the driver complain about the country and the people here, it feels right. When I am out late and people I do not even know act protective over me it feels right. It just feels right. I know my place right now is here. I can't predict the future nor can I say for certain that I am making all the right decisions. But I am making them for all the right reasons and for now that is all that counts. It also helps a tiny bitsy little that I have my soulmate right by my side; my baby sister.
You know you hate loving me, XoXo