Happy Birthday Ali

Tonight is the birthday of my most beloved Ali; an epic brother, father, son and friend. He's always there when you need him even if you don't ask him to. He's my guide in life and no matter what he says I can never go against what he wants because to me he's more then someone who shares my blood, he's more than my big brother... He's someone I look up to, He's someone whose always been there for me, through my good and bad times. He's the one I ask for advice when I'm lost... He's someone whose sacrificed everything for us, for his family. He never thinks of himself but always puts us first.. I've never heard the word no from him if it hasn't been for my own good. If I see him hurt i fall apart and my world starts cramping up on me, but when I see him happy, even for just one moment I become overjoyed... He's my everything.
Happy birthday balali, ana 7ebbo 7ebbo 7ebbo 7ebbo mwaaaaaaaaaaah

Nonna Happy Birthday

On the 30th of december, exactly 18 years ago an evil baby was brought to this world. A baby that made me wanna puke seeing it's face... haha naaeee just kidding... this evil baby was the cutest most brightest baby you could've ever seen and hence she was called nour, a perfectly fitted name. Thanks to her this hell that we call earth has been so much more fun, exciting and crazy then it could've ever been without her. She's the kind of person who never gives a shit about other peoples opinions and always states her mind and does as she pleases and that's what's assume about her. Happy Birthday eval bebe... ana 7ebbo add el mawj w ba7reto(L)(L)(L)

Marriage

I was walking home as someone opened the subject of marriage with me. He asked me if I would ever marry someone with another religion. According to him anyone who would find a great love with another person wouldn't care about religion, politics, etnicity or age. He continued talking about love and marriage when I finally felt that I had to stop him. I agree that if you marry someone of course you have to be inlove with him. HOWEVER I do not think that love alone can be a reason to get marrried. You have to be logical, you have to see the whole picture. There's a difference between dating someone and marrying someone. When you marry a person you give that person a vow; to be with him for the rest of your life, in sickness and in health... until death do you part. So I would ask myself, how would it be to marry someone with different believes then me? Some would say it's worth fighting for, love conquers all etc etc. I have to disagree because there will be a lot of things that you will fight over and every time you'll fight you'll grow further apart and what will you raise your children to be? You might say that they will decide by themselves but when I'm sure of the religion that I have and my kids choose to have another religion, will I really be okay with that? I don't think so.. no I know I won't be okay with that. I can also never think of marrying someone who doesn't share my love for allah and ahlul bayt, I can never be with someone that doesn't scream Labayk ya Nasrallah every time we hear him speak. It's not that I wouldn't be able to cohibit with that kind of person, it's simply that I would never want to. Age should not be an obstacle, neither should etnicity but the rest will be a big obstacle wether we like it or not.

Greeeeeeeny

OMG Greeeeny Greeeeny Greenyyyy. Few of my readers will understand this but this one isn't for you.. it's for me to remember what happened today... tshoaa.. it's not that it's like before but it made me remember.. remember one of my best 3 years of my life...

Pics from last night

These are the pics from last night, they're crazy I know and I look like a bloodsucking vampire haha but they're funny and that's what they're supposed to be!

Late Night Out

Yesterday my daddy came:D God I had missed him so much and now everything feels so good!! I was shocked when I asked him at 9.15 at night if it was okay if I went out and he said YES. Hahaha I was out really late enjoying myslef with Teta, Jandi and Maryama... The night before I was also out but with Mehdi, aloshi, maryama, Ali Haidar, Bebis, Hassibush and Kadde. All I can say is AL MAWT ILON. hahah... noo but seriously they killed me in the snow. I wanted to post two videos, one from each night but then again I really don't wanna show myself getting my ass kicked so I'm just posting a video from yesterday night and later I'll post pics from yesterday. XoXo

Miss You

Today I went to Nisse and I'm going to post two videos, I saw everyone; I've missed you all sooo much:( walla. XoXo

Ashoura

Two choices, two paths but the decision was not hard. Between Yazid and Allah Imam Hussain chose Allah. This was his destiny; to die so Islam can live.

The day of Ashoura is a day which in we mourn for the martyrdom of Imam Hussain (a.s), the grandson of Prophet Mohammad (s.a.w) at the battle of Karbala on the tenth day of muharram.

So now everyday a "majles" will be held and today it's going to be at my aunties place. XoXo

Hahaha ahla yom:D:D:D

Today maryama went with me to the university and we met up with namoose and 7anoush there.. lool it was so much fun, but maryama filmed two videos and im gonna post them both:) XoXo

Downtown and Snow

As I'm on my way to downtown the snow starts to fall on me.. giving me the best day in a looong time... I was with magdouse and namoose and then I went home and went there again with Teta... Today was really good, the snow itself was a blessing but being with my friends and also another thing happened that made me realise how truly blessed I am... Finally the winter is here!!! XoXo

Allah yel3an

a555 mawetne ya allah... I'm so freaking mad at people having nothing better to do than to start rumours about others!!! If everyone would focus on their own lives maybe the world wouldn't be such a disastrous place... I don't know if I should laugh or cry.. but I choose to laugh at you sick people who have nothing better to do than to talk about others. GET A FREAKING LIFE!! BEFORE I CHOP YOUR HEAD TO PIECES!!

Happy B-day BB

What day is it today? What day is it today? Today is kaddes day!! Happy B-day cousin, wow 19 huh? Yukh by tomorrow ull be old and grey.. heh naee just kidding couz, don't listen to me I'm just jealous cause I'm still 18:-(... waaaa3:'( .. hehe no but seriously couzzzz you have to make sure to make the best of this year, and live life!!!

Senye choka, kill 3am w ente b5er, Happy birthday, qu ni sheng er kuai le, Joyeux Anniversaire, Buon Compleanno!

Viva La Darin (L)

Just heard his cover of viva la vida.-.. go to youtube now and listen to it... omg he roxzz... is there anything he does that isn't as perfect as he is? Hehe damn in 2004 I cried when he came second place and now 5 years later he's still following his dream... AJA AJA HWAITIIIING, SARANGE, BOGOSHPOO :D:D:D:D... Viva la darin XoXo

Song of the day: Viva la vida by Darin Zanyar

Movie night

Wazza? Just finished watching what happens in vegas, this is the billion time I watch it and it was as fun as always, let me tell ya one thing; ashton kutcher isn't someone you get bored of. Haha seriously this movie is a 10 out of 10. It's PERFECT. Every scene in it is perfect and did I mention that Ashton kutcher is in it? Well I'll say it again, ASHTON KUTCHER IS IN IT. haha well for those of you who haven't watched the movie, you're missing out!! This is a must-see movie. XoXo

F3

A day with the f3 is never a bad day.. we went shopping had hot coco in espresso house and we saw shahid kapoors new movie. Let me just say damn it i gotta get meself a ticket to india.. haha.. no but honselty the guy is perfect, ykuhhh jandi and teta should we change our plans from korea to india instead? Naaah who am me kidding.. korea still numba one haha... XoXo

Namose me gonna miss you mot

Today I woke up really early to take a two hour long walk with namoose, she's moving to örebro in less then a month and I can't help but feel really bad over this fact. But even though I wished she could stay I know that this is what she should do; what she has to do. Today she stands infront of two choices; either she stays here at a place she knows and is comfortable in or she takes a leap into the unknown. That leap is going to take her out of her comfort zone and she might be thinking "why would I leave when I have it good here?" the answer is that it's because you can have it great over there. Staying here would mean that you will always think "what if"... and that's not something I wish for you, you should give it a chance because not until you step out of this comfort zone will you be actually LIVING.. You will start a whole new beginning in a new city with new people and that's not a bad thing, it's a great thing... you'll learn more about yourself but most importantly you will grow stronger. Even if everything doesn't work out atleast you will always be able to say that you gave it a shot. You moving is you following your dream. Don't think about the negative aspect of moving... see the good in it... Good luck hayato, namose, doris haha:P:P ana hate you(L)

WAR

If you mess with me I will mess with you but you mess with my sister and the war is on! A war which in you have no chance in winning. Enough is enough! My advice for you is to stand infront of a car and let it run you over because trust me compared to what I'm going to make sure is going to happen to you that car is nothing!!! I would like to tell you to grow up and behave like and adult but I'm not going to because there's now use anymore. You are officially on!!!

Thaaaaaank You A7la Mohamed

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG. Mohamed actually got me R-patzz autograph. Mohamed no matter how many 10xxx I give you it still won't show how really thankful I am. Not many people can make me speachless (you know how I love to talk) but u seriously did. I never in a million years ever thought that anyone would do this for a friend, let alone that someone would do this for me. Not only that you actually thought of getting me his autograph but you stood there in london for 5-6 hours... most of which you stood there alone. What can I say, thank you is not enough. No words are enough to make up to what you did. Seriously. You were in LONDON. Who the hell wastes six hours from his time to stand in line to get this for another person. Speahless. Thank you. You roxzzzz. You're A-masing. I don't know what else to say more then this is something I'll always remember, like OMG OMG OMG. HAHA... I know this is not enough but it's what I can do... for now. XoXo

math.. yukh

Today I was helping maryama study for her math test... haram it's ma c.. so hard, but you can do it hayati AJA AJA HWAIITING!!... Anyhhoo thought I would post some picss, enjoooy!!

Harry and the party is a nono

So yeah I guess Harry's pub and the party are cancelled... just got a text saying that christian is working early and everything has to get cancelled.. So I'm making new plans by myself... hm.. ideas??

100 swedish visitors

100 visitors from sweden!! This is a cause for celebration hehe:D:D COMBEEE!!!

Good Luck Bebis, Mahdi & Kadde

Tomorrow my bebis, my ahbal mahdi and kadde are having a math test and I was just helping them study.. All I can say is that I have the smartest cousin; mahdi is so good in math and he doesn't really need my help but he just likes having someone there when he studies, hehe ahla mahdi walla;)... Now mahdi and bebis went to the pizzeria to by some things before the juve game starts... yukh we're so nervous... I really hope they win, they have to.. this is a really important game and this time I'm not gonna miss it :D wooohho... instead I'm watching it with ahla mahdi w ahla bebis... FORZA JUVE ~~ JUVE FOR LIFE

Closest person

Whats upp?? .. so this post isn't for me to post my daily thoughts... This time I want every reader, even the silent readers (reads but doesnt comment), to name the person whose closest to them.. and describe the person in qeustion... So comment on...

3id ghadir mubarak

3id ghadir mubarak everyone... I had wanted to say this before twelve o'clock but I wasn't home so anyhoo better late then never.. take what you can geet ouri fans:P:P

On this day the prophet Muhammad said (amongst other things): "I'm the city of knowledge and Ali is the gate". This is the day that he declared Imam Ali (as) as his successor... A great day indeed.. xoxo

Thnxx Mohamed

Mohamed just called me unique... Behold and treasure this moment; I have a believer:D It's a hallelujah moment:P
Mohamed just texted me and informed me about what I have been trying to tell people for ages, THAT I'M UNIQUE... I was like, hmm tell me what's new.. like duuuh course me am unique muahaha... XoXo

Movie night

Late movie night with friends is always a blast and tonight was no exception... Me, noona, maryama, nushin, kadde, maya and in the end also mahdi watched confessions of a shopaholic.. it was actually my second time watching it and it was as much fun as the first.. Haha me and nushin understood what the girl was going through... anyhoo I would give this movie 3 out of 5... xoxo

Movie of the day: Confessions of a shopaholic

Foza Juve(L)

I missed the game.. all the guys took the livingroom and and I was stuck waiting to hear when they scream (either out of jjoy or anger) ... Anyhoo WE WOOOON!! Wohoooo!!!! Take that inter you little tweebs:P:P:P:P FORZA JUVE (L) FORZA DELPIERO

Tötä kadde n me having fun

Sitting with ouri baby tötää and kadde listening to justin bieber.. Yuup I think tötä is in love haha:P:P ... Lalala love me love me say that you love me :P:P (his songs are A-masing)

Song of the day: love me by justin bieber

Party and Blackout.. life is goood:P

Whaaats uup all my crazyy readers? Is life treating you as well as it's treating me?
Well, yesterday a lot of things happened... Appearently I'm invited to a party next week and to Harrys pub in uddevalla. Gonna be soo much fuun :D
A really crazy thing that happened yesterday was that the whole city had a black out.. all electricity went off and suddenly I felt as if I was in lebanon... haha me and Jandi started creating theories as to why it went off. Then crazy jandi told me to get up to print our essays from the computer
Jandi: Let's go print
Me: No we can't, hello? (pointing at the lamp, indicating that the electricity is off)
Jandi: (still crazy) Whaat?
Me: The electricity is off, yaaaaa
Jandi: Oh, silly me hehe
LOL this girl is the smartest retard I have evaaa met... :P:P
Anyways I also saw sarsooor whom I miss more each day.. tc sarsoor, really hoping everything works out the way you want it (L) mwaaaah

Life

Life is most of the times a big mess. Things that are beyond our control happen – whether we like it or not. Heartbreaking, hilarious, humiliating; these are things that are bound to happen. That's life and there's no use trying to avoid these kind of things to happen... It's better to prepare ourselves for when they come.

I wish I could share evrything with you without any boundaries, I wish I could tell you about my first heartbreaking story, my many hilarious and humiliating moments; simply I wish I could tell you everything from the moment I can remeber until now. If I would do so maybe you would feel better about your own life or maybe it would make you roll your eyes thinking that you've been through worse. But I can't just yet, I'm not ready to talk about everything that's happened to me but one day I will be and then you will be the first to hear them, every story that I have to tell; even the ones that only I know of, stories I haven't told a single soul about yet.

:(

Is this what it came down to? The chock is still in me and I don't know what to do.. never in a million years did I think that this would happen... ottokaji? I need to stop letting people in, i need to stop giving the best of myself

Me so nuts

Today was a lot of fun, haha I was shopping for mens purfume and people thought I was nuts... well I guess I am but that's what me loves haha.. anyways tomorrow I don't have any classes but still I'm going there anyways to meet namoose and have some choko at espresso house. XoXo

Taking his last breath

"Have you ever seen someone taking his last breath?" He said to me and I brushed off the question, wanting to change the subject. I didn't want to talk about it but ever since then I've been thinking about it more then ever, how I was sitting there witnessing someone who was like my second dad taking his last breath. Every time I remember it I get chills and tears start to run down my face.

My aunties husband died in cancer a couple of months ago and I was there as his illness was taking the life of the strongest, most willfull man I had ever met. This man was someone whom everybody looked up to and I couldn't ever imagine a life without being able to have him as a neighbor, without being able to see him all the time. The time came when I got the news that there wasn't a chance for him and I broke down, falling on the floor crying, not knowing how to get up. The only thing that gave me strength was that I had to be strong and go tell this to his kids who were in school. How was I going to tell maryama, kadde and nonna these news? I had to be strong enough for their sake. I told them and we went to guthenburg to stay by his side.

The next morning I went there again but I decided to stay at the hospital this time. And I wasn't the only one, his whole family and almost all his friends wanted to stay by his side. We were about a hundred people filling the hospital and when I remember this I think about how many people he was loved by... How many people who respected him and wanted to be by his side. He was truly loved. As his last moments came to en end I just wanted to die, it was an experience I don't wish upon anyone. Not only did I witness someone taking his last breath but I witnessed my uncle who meant the world to me taking it.

3ammo allah yor7amak w ya3te el 2ewiye la 3ayltak ...

My Maryama... My Gem

My oh my, I can't believe it... I've written about a lot of my friends and what they mean to me in this blog but I haven't written about one of the greatest. This girl is more then a friend, more then a cousin, to me she's a sister... I've always loved her and considered her to be assume but at some point (I don't know exactly when) she became someone who I can say anything to, someone who I really want to see everyday because she knows exactly how to make me laugh... she became a person whom when I see I just run to her for a hug (and me doesn't hug anyone). Whenever I needed something she would be there for me and when I cried she was the one to comfort me... Even when earth was being a living hell for her, even after she lost the most precious person on earth to her she still made sure that I had a shoulder to cry on, she comforted me when she was the one who needed more comfort, she stood up for me even when it would bring her trouble. Her troubles were much bigger then mine but still she helped me through them and every time I cried she would comfort me even though I should have been the one holding her and comforting her. That's who she is, she's a person with a heart of gold who sees others before she sees herself, she's simply my maryama. The Maryama that sometimes even without her knowing it she made my day happier just by saying a typical maryama crazy comment... Just by looking at her I can't help but smile and when she cries I feel like the world is about to end... I just can't take it... I hate every person who doesn't appreciate her enough and doesn't see what a treasure she is... She's truly a gem... A gem whom without I would be lost... XoXo

Kadde

The most of you know my cousin Kadde but for those of you who don't know all I have to say is that you're missing out on a lot. I've had my ups and downs with her, my fights and makeups, my good and bad, my tears and smiles. Our friendship has been one hell of a rollercoaster but that rollercoaster is just going to go up from here on now. Why? Because she's my kadde, the girl who would fight a battle for me and my family, the girl who thinks of us before thinking of herself. If there's something we want she gives it to us without thinking about herself first. She is strong, goodhearted and even though she's gone through a lot she's still trying to stand strong. I want to tell you to never listen to those who want to put you down. They don't know anything, they don't know you! But don't let it get to you because as long as you know who you are you shouldn't care about anything or anyone. Sormeytek bteswa kill wa7ad bijarreb ye2zike... XoXo

Carpe Diem

Today I recieved one of the greatest gifts I have ever recieved. This is a gift that has a lot of meaning to me and I want to say thaaank you soo much. The gift was a neckless that had carpe diem written on it with a heart in the middle. Woow. Again thank you !!

3id?

The clock passed 12 o'clock and my friends started texting me "3id mubarak"... For me it wasn't 3id, it certainly didn't feel like it but still I told the people I loved "kell 3am w ento b5er". Next day (today) I woke up by namoose calling me and I had 15 minutes left for the bus that goes to my college. I don't know how I put my clothes on, how I took the jacket and how I ran to the bus. I go their, I put on the show and I pass. Next we had the seminar (nshallah naja7et ya rabbb) and henna wasn't there but those three hours withmy group made me laugh more than I had laughed in a year. It was real laughter that made my stomach hurt. They were talking about crazy things that you're better off not hearing and people passing us were shocked but I didn't care... Because I was LAUGHING... Even though this doesn't feel like 3id because of several things I was still happy today thanks to my group. XoXo

Broken heart

He took her hand and he held it tight in his, without seeing her face and without her seeing his face they both started tearing up unwantedly. Tear after tear started to cover their eyes, still not looking at the other person. She says goodbye and he stands their; letting her go, not because he doesn't love her but because he truly does. That's the scene of seperation that broke my heart into pieces... "We leave eachother because of love only to hopefully being reunited in the future because of love"

What's the purpose?

I'm at my college now and my class starts in 5 minutes but.. but.. I just don't want to go... It's not because I'm still down or sad it's just because I don't find any meaning to it all... What's the purpose of doing this whole thing? Of living... Everyday it's the same routine, I go to all the same places and meet all the same people... Once in a while I see someone unexpected and we talk and I become happy but then later on I become upset again... Is life so boring that the highlight of my day is meeting someone I wasn't expecting to meet? So I decided to change my routine, I'm not going to go to my class and I'm going to do something I never thought I would, it's going to be CRAZY and it's going to upset a lot of people but I'm not going to care. I don't care to the extent that I might even blog about what I did... And maybe not.. You'll know by the end of the evening if I decide to blog about what I did.. until then XoXo

Day in the rain

Yesterday I took a walk with teta in the pouring rain... The rain was puring so hard that everyone was inside cursing the weather, everyone but me and ouri teta... I've said before why I love rain and teta is like me so we walked and walked, talking about everything. Then out of nowhere I see we're not the only crazy people outside.. maya and kadde were taking pics in the rain and what else could I do but join? And so me did haha... Later on I went to my cousins place and we started talking about lebanon and how we miss everyone there. Not just the people but the places too... I love sweden and the people here too, don't get me wrong.. I just wish I could have the best of both countries in one... XoXo

New Moon

It's saturday night and I look at the clock... it shows 7.15; one hour left until I go to watch the movie I have been waiting for for a year now... I'm excited but at the same time afarid that I'll be dissappointed as I was after the first movie. Don't get me wrong it was a great movie but it wasn't the kind of great I wanted. Twilight concentrated on the vampire and action part and they forgot that main theme in twilight isn't vampires and action... the main theme is love... The story tells us about an epic love, a love so epic that not even the fact that your loved one is a vampire can stop you from being with him... and not even the fact that it pains you to be next to your loved one because her blood smells like no other before can keep you from wanting to be with her, hold her and treasure her. In the movie they failed to show this epic love and why it's so epic. So as afraid of dissappointement as I was I put my clothes on, fixed myself and went to see the cinema to see if I would love new moon; and boy did I... It followed the story so good, every scene was perfectly executed and just as I had imagined it to be. It was my kind of great. The only thing missing was ropert pattinson coming out of the screen. Now that would have been EPIC. XoXo

My day part 4

All of the sudden they go and leave me... alone... in the rain... looking out at the water... I felt so... so... GOOD!! HaHa.. Finally I was rid of them... HaHa.. No but seriously something got into me and I let everything out... everyhting, sitting there alone I started crying... Please come back (NOT)

But they did come back :'(... And they took me away to krono again.. Now that's worth crying for..

Goodbye Slussarna... Goodbye calmness...

My day part 3

When we wanted to go back, the car STOPPED so we didn't know what to do... Then me and sarsor decided to push the car...

But it wouldn't start and I got panicked.. so I decided to jump in to the water and end the misery... Sarsor didn't care and told me to jump if I wanted to do so but namoose wouldn't let anything bad happen to me so she caught me in the last second and told me that sarsor is probably too weak and that she would push the car with me...

We started pushing and pushin and it finally started... I knew it was all sarsoras fault...

My day part 2

I wasn't sure about how my clothes looked so I asked them "How do I look? Is the sweater okay?"

















Then they started laughing at me: "HaHa haram, you look so funny" Ottokaji?














Well, I had a jacket (thank you god) so I decided to put it on and we went to slussarna... In the rain... wohoooo

My day part 1

As I said in my previous entry the midnight-walk-in-the-rain didn't help... I needed someone who could make me think of other things... Jandi Bhat was sick and Teta had school but I had ouri namose and sarsor whom I hadn't seen in months so I went to my college even though I didn't have any classes to meet up with them and we had a blast... These two made me laugh, push cars, cry and try to commit suicie all in the same day... Thank you girls for making me feel better and I hope you had fun too... Anyways through some pics I'm going to retell our day (with some fiction of course)... the story is too long but here is part one...

We're sitting taking pics and joking at the college

After the last pic we decide that since namoose got her drivings licence (mabroooouk hayati) we should take the car, go out and have some fun...

Depression :S

In the last couple of days I was feeling really down but I tried real hard not to show it to anyone, even convincing myself that I was fine and I succeded until yesterday around midnight when I couldn't hold it in anymore... I wasn't fine and I couldn't take it anymore but thankfully I had a talk with namoose who gave me good advice and I decided to take them... After that I went out and took a walk alone in the rain... it was really late (around 1 o'clock at night) so I was careful with having noone notice because they would FLIP. The walk helped for a little while but I still wasn't okay and I needed something more... or someone... XoXo

Ta7adde

This entry is in arabic because the person in question wanted it this way:

Min kam youm sar fi ta7adde bayne w ben sha5es; ken bado yektob 3anne bill blog shi ma 3ajabne fa t7adayto yekteba... w kataba lal shaghle la2en howe al mosta7il yo5sar ta7adde... el mohem ana hounik arraret enne badde raje3lo yeha w ektob shi yo2haro bil blog la2en alle enne ma bestarje.. w bass 7ada y2elle enne ma bestarje e3mol shi bsir badde a3mela law sho ma sar. W lyoum ma ken youm mni7 binesbe ele fa elt la 7ale yalla feshe kell 5el2ek fi HaHa.. Balashet 3a ases badde ektob bass ma ken fiye ektob shi mich mni7 3anno la2en aslan ma shi ma mni7 fi (gher shi 10 shaghlet haha 3m bemza7)... bass la2 hayda cousin 3anjad byorfa3 el ras; howe w 3aylto byorfa3o el ras w ma 5ele2 li baddo yjib sirton gher bi kill shi mni7... w henne 3ende aham min shi kam kelme bil blog aw min tehdid... W bass badde 2ol lal kill enno li baddo ye7ke 3an 7adan minnon yfaker awal shi 10 marrat bi sho momken ysir fihon... tc cousin w nshallah kill masheklak yen7allo w kill shi btetmanne yserlak...

My Sick Cousin

The cold is taking over everyone these days and now I just found out that my cousin also got it... It made me feel so bad cause even though this cousin is 5ales, ghaliz and mtallet he's still the best cousin one could wish for... A cousin that's always there when u need it, a cousin who can make u laugh even in your worst days, a cousin that through even just a smile can make you feel better, a cousin with a heart of gold, a cousin that would do anything for his family, simply I want to say that he's an epic person. An epic person indeed. So just wanted to say get well, get lots of sleep, yansoon, and be at the soba all the time... XoXo

Loosing The One You Love

I was talking to my friend yesterday and he was sad about a breakup and so we started talking about how hard it is to lose the one you love to someone else. And he asked, is there anything worse in the world? It got me thinking, and yes there is... Loosing the person you love to death, instead of to someone else. Maybe some won't agree, they will say that it's hard knowing that the other person still lives but you cant be with him/her. But I think that the people saying that are people who doesn't know how it is to loose someone to death. Yet again I don't know how it is to loose your beloved to someone else so maybe I can't judge either? But think about it: You can never meet that person again, never talk to him/her again.. only in your dreams do you get your chance to meet again but even then when you wake up the feeling just kills you because you come back to reality; a reality in which your beloved is dead, buried, nonexisting in any other place but in your heart. You wouldn't have the chance to see that person happy again, smile again, laugh again, wink again, smirk again... You'll always think; what if? What could've been? Would it be the two of us against the world? Would it be always and forever? Would it be epic? You'll never know but you just hope that one day, some day someone else will come and sweep you off your feet again and that this time around it'll last, it'll be always and forever, it'll be epic. XoXo

Songs of the day: ALAM and BISSAN

Favourite Guys and Girls

During the last day at my old school I wanted to spend every second capturing the memories I had from it; this school felt like a safe place for me, a place where I had met so many loving people whom I would never forget. These people and these memories; this school shaped the person I face today in the mirror. I had a blast with everyone, from my first to my last year I spent it with those guys and girls and even though a lot of misfortune happened they were and will always be amongst my favourite people in the world... I miss the staircase where I sat on, ignoring those telling us that it wasn't "suitable"... I miss the "runda bord" where I would have endless discussions with the guys... I miss the cafeteria that namoose got her favourite dose of coffee from... I miss the library that could never be quiet with us in it... I miss the hallway were we would run until our breath went out... I simply miss everything, every inch of that school and it will forever be my favourite place in the world along with some of my favourite memories of my life... Thank you for giving me an experience no ohteer school could have ever provided me !!

Beautiful Enough To Love

OMG OMG OMG. Guess who me saw today? Yuup, Rasta!!!!! Haha and I sat behind him, making Henna all jealous, muahaha!! Btw just wanted to thank my cousin in lebanon for the nicest sweater ever, it was goergeus habibiiii(K)(L)... XoXo

List of songs

So I decided to make a list, 6 songs from these three languages.

Arabic songs:
*Ana ktir 3alek
*A7la Gharam
*Sar el7aki
*Law ta3rafou
*Ya rab
*Kent mfaker

English songs:
*Halo
*Forever and always
*Love story
*Real love
*I'm yours
*Soulmate

Korean songs:
*Hallelujah
*Ring ding dong
*Haru Haru
*Heartbeat
*Waiting for you
*Without words

Doulo habibi is Back!!

I missed him soooo much and now he's finally back !! Doulo is here and I couldn't be happier. In the past year I haven't seen him more than 2 months combined and I was never used to that. Seing him again so many emotions ran through me; LOVE, HAPPINESS, COMFORT and SATISFACTION. This couldn't get better (only of course if rasta was here too). Anyways soon I'm going to add a list of songs you have to listen to, they are amasing!! XoXo

Perfect day with maryama

Wazza all my readers? yukh its so sad that my only readers are people I force to read my blog HaHa.. Well today I dont care because this day was PERFECT, I even saw Rasta (L) at the college. Good things just kept coming to me haaha and I even spent the whole day with maryama, so what can be better than that? Anyhoo here's some pics from when we had our little gathering.. we had so much fun and more pics to come later.. and maybe a video too haha.. maybe..

Pic spam 3

I was looking through some old pics and when I saw these two I remembered the day we took them, four years ago when I was in ninth grade. It was such an amasing day... We were having an event in school and we decided to dress in "3abayet" and we all looked assume and the day was one of my best days ever... So much has changed since then but the memories remain... Don't they roxzz in the 3abayet? XoXo

Pic spam 2

The first pics are from last years valentines day, yup sadly enough I spent it with those morrons !! haha and the last pic shows me being with my evaaal sister and Fofo. Enjooy !! More to come muahaha

Pic spam

I was looking over my blog and noticed that it was too serious, and dull because it lacks pics... So here I am uploading more.. and more to come, XoXo

Hamadas Engagement

A while ago I was at my cousins engagement but I never really got the chance to update anything about it so here I decided to show you some late pictures. Enjoy !! XoXo

Lebanon

Yesterday my mum and sister went to Lebanon, my favourite place in the whole wide world. The country I wished I could spend a lifetime in. A lot of people ask me why I love it so much, I grew up here in Sweden so shouldn't I feel more at home here? The answer is that even though I have my home here I still feel most comfortable in Lebanon, my happiest memories are my memories there and my greatest stories are my stories there. Of course I've also had some bad memories and witnessed some awful things there but still the good beats the hell out of the bad. I love the food, the places we go out to, the ocean, the walks we take in the evening, but most of all I love the lebanese people. Of course not all of them are good and I have had my fist fights with a couple of them but still my favourite people in the world are there; people I love to be with, people I care about and miss every single day I'm here in Sweden. So right now I'm sitting down and blogging about my love for Lebanon while waiting for ouri unni Maya (Love yaaa habboul) to ditch Abbas and talk to me. Unfortunately I know how much fun it is to hang out with all the people there so I know my chances of her ditching him are small. I understand Habboul (not that you care lol :-P). Anyways missing all of you and always having you in my mind. XoXo

Seize The Day

A lot of people always put off to tomorrow what they can do today and I have always been one of those people but the question is why? Why do we put off things for another day, what if that day never comes? I think that we choose to put it off because of fear; it could be fear of failure or rejection. Too often, as in my own case, we try to put it off because of the fair of making a decision because what if I'm wrong? What if the decision that I make is a decision I later on would want but can't undo? But what happens when the pain of not being able to make a decision gets worse than the fear of not making it? Can we really say that we're alive if we're not really living? Because letting life be controlled by fear is not a way that anyone should live by because then you're no longer actually living. We hear writers telling us not to put anything off but we still do, we hear poets telling us to seize the day but we still don't. I, myself, am going to stop putting things off, I'm going to start seizing the day because in the end knowing is better than wondering and the biggest failure that I can come across still beats the crap out of never trying, never really living. Are you willing to start living? XoXo

Are you a believer?

Do you believe in fortune telling? That someone can tell you your past, your present and your future by for example looking into a cup of coffee that you drank from. I was one of those who would endlessly mock those who believe in it but today I chose to believe. This woman looked into my cup and told me things that not even my best of best friends knew... she then told me about what I was thinking now and gave me answers to my questions, answers that I so madly, truly and deeply want to be true and thus I chose to believe. Yes; today I'm a believer, are you?

Painful goodbye

The most painful goodbye is the one when you know you'll never say hello again...

But what's worse than that is not even getting the chance to say goodbye...