My Maryama... My Gem

My oh my, I can't believe it... I've written about a lot of my friends and what they mean to me in this blog but I haven't written about one of the greatest. This girl is more then a friend, more then a cousin, to me she's a sister... I've always loved her and considered her to be assume but at some point (I don't know exactly when) she became someone who I can say anything to, someone who I really want to see everyday because she knows exactly how to make me laugh... she became a person whom when I see I just run to her for a hug (and me doesn't hug anyone). Whenever I needed something she would be there for me and when I cried she was the one to comfort me... Even when earth was being a living hell for her, even after she lost the most precious person on earth to her she still made sure that I had a shoulder to cry on, she comforted me when she was the one who needed more comfort, she stood up for me even when it would bring her trouble. Her troubles were much bigger then mine but still she helped me through them and every time I cried she would comfort me even though I should have been the one holding her and comforting her. That's who she is, she's a person with a heart of gold who sees others before she sees herself, she's simply my maryama. The Maryama that sometimes even without her knowing it she made my day happier just by saying a typical maryama crazy comment... Just by looking at her I can't help but smile and when she cries I feel like the world is about to end... I just can't take it... I hate every person who doesn't appreciate her enough and doesn't see what a treasure she is... She's truly a gem... A gem whom without I would be lost... XoXo

Kadde

The most of you know my cousin Kadde but for those of you who don't know all I have to say is that you're missing out on a lot. I've had my ups and downs with her, my fights and makeups, my good and bad, my tears and smiles. Our friendship has been one hell of a rollercoaster but that rollercoaster is just going to go up from here on now. Why? Because she's my kadde, the girl who would fight a battle for me and my family, the girl who thinks of us before thinking of herself. If there's something we want she gives it to us without thinking about herself first. She is strong, goodhearted and even though she's gone through a lot she's still trying to stand strong. I want to tell you to never listen to those who want to put you down. They don't know anything, they don't know you! But don't let it get to you because as long as you know who you are you shouldn't care about anything or anyone. Sormeytek bteswa kill wa7ad bijarreb ye2zike... XoXo

Carpe Diem

Today I recieved one of the greatest gifts I have ever recieved. This is a gift that has a lot of meaning to me and I want to say thaaank you soo much. The gift was a neckless that had carpe diem written on it with a heart in the middle. Woow. Again thank you !!

3id?

The clock passed 12 o'clock and my friends started texting me "3id mubarak"... For me it wasn't 3id, it certainly didn't feel like it but still I told the people I loved "kell 3am w ento b5er". Next day (today) I woke up by namoose calling me and I had 15 minutes left for the bus that goes to my college. I don't know how I put my clothes on, how I took the jacket and how I ran to the bus. I go their, I put on the show and I pass. Next we had the seminar (nshallah naja7et ya rabbb) and henna wasn't there but those three hours withmy group made me laugh more than I had laughed in a year. It was real laughter that made my stomach hurt. They were talking about crazy things that you're better off not hearing and people passing us were shocked but I didn't care... Because I was LAUGHING... Even though this doesn't feel like 3id because of several things I was still happy today thanks to my group. XoXo

Broken heart

He took her hand and he held it tight in his, without seeing her face and without her seeing his face they both started tearing up unwantedly. Tear after tear started to cover their eyes, still not looking at the other person. She says goodbye and he stands their; letting her go, not because he doesn't love her but because he truly does. That's the scene of seperation that broke my heart into pieces... "We leave eachother because of love only to hopefully being reunited in the future because of love"

What's the purpose?

I'm at my college now and my class starts in 5 minutes but.. but.. I just don't want to go... It's not because I'm still down or sad it's just because I don't find any meaning to it all... What's the purpose of doing this whole thing? Of living... Everyday it's the same routine, I go to all the same places and meet all the same people... Once in a while I see someone unexpected and we talk and I become happy but then later on I become upset again... Is life so boring that the highlight of my day is meeting someone I wasn't expecting to meet? So I decided to change my routine, I'm not going to go to my class and I'm going to do something I never thought I would, it's going to be CRAZY and it's going to upset a lot of people but I'm not going to care. I don't care to the extent that I might even blog about what I did... And maybe not.. You'll know by the end of the evening if I decide to blog about what I did.. until then XoXo

Day in the rain

Yesterday I took a walk with teta in the pouring rain... The rain was puring so hard that everyone was inside cursing the weather, everyone but me and ouri teta... I've said before why I love rain and teta is like me so we walked and walked, talking about everything. Then out of nowhere I see we're not the only crazy people outside.. maya and kadde were taking pics in the rain and what else could I do but join? And so me did haha... Later on I went to my cousins place and we started talking about lebanon and how we miss everyone there. Not just the people but the places too... I love sweden and the people here too, don't get me wrong.. I just wish I could have the best of both countries in one... XoXo