Gonna Put On a Smile & Go With iT

There are some things that I haven't been ready to face just yet. And I thought I wouldn't have to be ready to face them so it was all cool. However faith has intervened and made sure that I have to face them now, when I least can handle it. OH HOW NICE OF YOU, FAITH!



I got a call today from my dad and appearently my grandmother is very sick so he has booked the next flight down here and by tomorrow I will have to be in my lebanese hometown Khiam. HAPPY ME! NOT! Why oh whyyy please tell me why? Well I guess it's something I have to do so I am going to put on my happy face now and go pack some clothes! I'll keep you guys updated (and by you I mean the only two people who reads this blog. HAHA.) But for now, you know you hate loving me xoxoooo

Push

In my last entry I asked a question about wether or not you agree with "people always leave". The good news is I got a comment from someone! Yeey happy mee! The bad news is that it's someone who wishes to piss me off!! hmm I made them walk out on me? Which one? The best friend whom I considered a sister but according to her all I had been since 2009 was being someone not worthy of her friendship? Or maybe you mean the childhood friend that walked out without an explanation or even a sorry? No you probably mean the person whom I trusted wholeheartedly, only to have that person betray me; stamp on my trust, throw it to the dogs to chew on it then spit it out as a dessert for the cats!! Haaha No no it was probably the girl who started avoiding me because of her guy!! You want more? Because the list goes on and on... I've done tons of bad things, but none of those where intentional. In none of the cases did I MEAN to hurt the other person. But shit happens and I did but never ever have I betrayed someone, or walked out on a friend, especially when that friend had noone else. I aknowledged my mistakes and asked for forgiveness not like the one who walked away without even a sorry. Yeah, so I did not make them leave.. they left on their own so lets just have that fact straight! For now, you know you hate loving me xoxooo

People always Leave

I started blogging 2 years ago. Several reasons where behind it but mostly I was in not-such-a-good-place in my life and I needed a place where I could just write about anything I felt like writing about. There where times when I would stop blogging, like recently, and always for different reasons. Anyways here I am now, two years later, in the same not-such-a-good-place and I decided to start blogging again. Hmm.. people always leave... Do you agree?

Loving Life

Haven't been this happy in a very long time...

FINALS

Lol I look so into my explanations :P .. Over the next two weeks I have my finals so I'm busting my ass right now trying to study all the books I have.. wish me luckzz

Strange

Finally all my midterms are done!! It's funny how I did really good on the courses I hadn't studied to but completely blöööwed on the test I studied too !! hmm... something must be really wrong with me!!

That face of an angel comes out just when you need it to!

When I feel that one of my friends needs me I try my best to always be there for them: whether it's to cover their back, or give them a shoulder to cry on, or taking pressure from them by helping them in doing something. It's funny though, how most of them appear ONLY when they need something. I remember you who only called when you wanted to talk about your problems. I also remember you who knew I was in trouble but turned the other way. Furthermore, I remember you who promised "friends forever" but bailed because of fear. Then I remember you who came running back asking for forgiveness. NOW remember ME quitting on YOU!