Happy Birthday Ali

Tonight is the birthday of my most beloved Ali; an epic brother, father, son and friend. He's always there when you need him even if you don't ask him to. He's my guide in life and no matter what he says I can never go against what he wants because to me he's more then someone who shares my blood, he's more than my big brother... He's someone I look up to, He's someone whose always been there for me, through my good and bad times. He's the one I ask for advice when I'm lost... He's someone whose sacrificed everything for us, for his family. He never thinks of himself but always puts us first.. I've never heard the word no from him if it hasn't been for my own good. If I see him hurt i fall apart and my world starts cramping up on me, but when I see him happy, even for just one moment I become overjoyed... He's my everything.
Happy birthday balali, ana 7ebbo 7ebbo 7ebbo 7ebbo mwaaaaaaaaaaah

Nonna Happy Birthday

On the 30th of december, exactly 18 years ago an evil baby was brought to this world. A baby that made me wanna puke seeing it's face... haha naaeee just kidding... this evil baby was the cutest most brightest baby you could've ever seen and hence she was called nour, a perfectly fitted name. Thanks to her this hell that we call earth has been so much more fun, exciting and crazy then it could've ever been without her. She's the kind of person who never gives a shit about other peoples opinions and always states her mind and does as she pleases and that's what's assume about her. Happy Birthday eval bebe... ana 7ebbo add el mawj w ba7reto(L)(L)(L)

Marriage

I was walking home as someone opened the subject of marriage with me. He asked me if I would ever marry someone with another religion. According to him anyone who would find a great love with another person wouldn't care about religion, politics, etnicity or age. He continued talking about love and marriage when I finally felt that I had to stop him. I agree that if you marry someone of course you have to be inlove with him. HOWEVER I do not think that love alone can be a reason to get marrried. You have to be logical, you have to see the whole picture. There's a difference between dating someone and marrying someone. When you marry a person you give that person a vow; to be with him for the rest of your life, in sickness and in health... until death do you part. So I would ask myself, how would it be to marry someone with different believes then me? Some would say it's worth fighting for, love conquers all etc etc. I have to disagree because there will be a lot of things that you will fight over and every time you'll fight you'll grow further apart and what will you raise your children to be? You might say that they will decide by themselves but when I'm sure of the religion that I have and my kids choose to have another religion, will I really be okay with that? I don't think so.. no I know I won't be okay with that. I can also never think of marrying someone who doesn't share my love for allah and ahlul bayt, I can never be with someone that doesn't scream Labayk ya Nasrallah every time we hear him speak. It's not that I wouldn't be able to cohibit with that kind of person, it's simply that I would never want to. Age should not be an obstacle, neither should etnicity but the rest will be a big obstacle wether we like it or not.

Greeeeeeeny

OMG Greeeeny Greeeeny Greenyyyy. Few of my readers will understand this but this one isn't for you.. it's for me to remember what happened today... tshoaa.. it's not that it's like before but it made me remember.. remember one of my best 3 years of my life...

Pics from last night

These are the pics from last night, they're crazy I know and I look like a bloodsucking vampire haha but they're funny and that's what they're supposed to be!

Late Night Out

Yesterday my daddy came:D God I had missed him so much and now everything feels so good!! I was shocked when I asked him at 9.15 at night if it was okay if I went out and he said YES. Hahaha I was out really late enjoying myslef with Teta, Jandi and Maryama... The night before I was also out but with Mehdi, aloshi, maryama, Ali Haidar, Bebis, Hassibush and Kadde. All I can say is AL MAWT ILON. hahah... noo but seriously they killed me in the snow. I wanted to post two videos, one from each night but then again I really don't wanna show myself getting my ass kicked so I'm just posting a video from yesterday night and later I'll post pics from yesterday. XoXo

Miss You

Today I went to Nisse and I'm going to post two videos, I saw everyone; I've missed you all sooo much:( walla. XoXo

Ashoura

Two choices, two paths but the decision was not hard. Between Yazid and Allah Imam Hussain chose Allah. This was his destiny; to die so Islam can live.

The day of Ashoura is a day which in we mourn for the martyrdom of Imam Hussain (a.s), the grandson of Prophet Mohammad (s.a.w) at the battle of Karbala on the tenth day of muharram.

So now everyday a "majles" will be held and today it's going to be at my aunties place. XoXo

Hahaha ahla yom:D:D:D

Today maryama went with me to the university and we met up with namoose and 7anoush there.. lool it was so much fun, but maryama filmed two videos and im gonna post them both:) XoXo

Downtown and Snow

As I'm on my way to downtown the snow starts to fall on me.. giving me the best day in a looong time... I was with magdouse and namoose and then I went home and went there again with Teta... Today was really good, the snow itself was a blessing but being with my friends and also another thing happened that made me realise how truly blessed I am... Finally the winter is here!!! XoXo

Allah yel3an

a555 mawetne ya allah... I'm so freaking mad at people having nothing better to do than to start rumours about others!!! If everyone would focus on their own lives maybe the world wouldn't be such a disastrous place... I don't know if I should laugh or cry.. but I choose to laugh at you sick people who have nothing better to do than to talk about others. GET A FREAKING LIFE!! BEFORE I CHOP YOUR HEAD TO PIECES!!

Happy B-day BB

What day is it today? What day is it today? Today is kaddes day!! Happy B-day cousin, wow 19 huh? Yukh by tomorrow ull be old and grey.. heh naee just kidding couz, don't listen to me I'm just jealous cause I'm still 18:-(... waaaa3:'( .. hehe no but seriously couzzzz you have to make sure to make the best of this year, and live life!!!

Senye choka, kill 3am w ente b5er, Happy birthday, qu ni sheng er kuai le, Joyeux Anniversaire, Buon Compleanno!

Viva La Darin (L)

Just heard his cover of viva la vida.-.. go to youtube now and listen to it... omg he roxzz... is there anything he does that isn't as perfect as he is? Hehe damn in 2004 I cried when he came second place and now 5 years later he's still following his dream... AJA AJA HWAITIIIING, SARANGE, BOGOSHPOO :D:D:D:D... Viva la darin XoXo

Song of the day: Viva la vida by Darin Zanyar

Movie night

Wazza? Just finished watching what happens in vegas, this is the billion time I watch it and it was as fun as always, let me tell ya one thing; ashton kutcher isn't someone you get bored of. Haha seriously this movie is a 10 out of 10. It's PERFECT. Every scene in it is perfect and did I mention that Ashton kutcher is in it? Well I'll say it again, ASHTON KUTCHER IS IN IT. haha well for those of you who haven't watched the movie, you're missing out!! This is a must-see movie. XoXo

F3

A day with the f3 is never a bad day.. we went shopping had hot coco in espresso house and we saw shahid kapoors new movie. Let me just say damn it i gotta get meself a ticket to india.. haha.. no but honselty the guy is perfect, ykuhhh jandi and teta should we change our plans from korea to india instead? Naaah who am me kidding.. korea still numba one haha... XoXo

Namose me gonna miss you mot

Today I woke up really early to take a two hour long walk with namoose, she's moving to örebro in less then a month and I can't help but feel really bad over this fact. But even though I wished she could stay I know that this is what she should do; what she has to do. Today she stands infront of two choices; either she stays here at a place she knows and is comfortable in or she takes a leap into the unknown. That leap is going to take her out of her comfort zone and she might be thinking "why would I leave when I have it good here?" the answer is that it's because you can have it great over there. Staying here would mean that you will always think "what if"... and that's not something I wish for you, you should give it a chance because not until you step out of this comfort zone will you be actually LIVING.. You will start a whole new beginning in a new city with new people and that's not a bad thing, it's a great thing... you'll learn more about yourself but most importantly you will grow stronger. Even if everything doesn't work out atleast you will always be able to say that you gave it a shot. You moving is you following your dream. Don't think about the negative aspect of moving... see the good in it... Good luck hayato, namose, doris haha:P:P ana hate you(L)

WAR

If you mess with me I will mess with you but you mess with my sister and the war is on! A war which in you have no chance in winning. Enough is enough! My advice for you is to stand infront of a car and let it run you over because trust me compared to what I'm going to make sure is going to happen to you that car is nothing!!! I would like to tell you to grow up and behave like and adult but I'm not going to because there's now use anymore. You are officially on!!!

Thaaaaaank You A7la Mohamed

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG. Mohamed actually got me R-patzz autograph. Mohamed no matter how many 10xxx I give you it still won't show how really thankful I am. Not many people can make me speachless (you know how I love to talk) but u seriously did. I never in a million years ever thought that anyone would do this for a friend, let alone that someone would do this for me. Not only that you actually thought of getting me his autograph but you stood there in london for 5-6 hours... most of which you stood there alone. What can I say, thank you is not enough. No words are enough to make up to what you did. Seriously. You were in LONDON. Who the hell wastes six hours from his time to stand in line to get this for another person. Speahless. Thank you. You roxzzzz. You're A-masing. I don't know what else to say more then this is something I'll always remember, like OMG OMG OMG. HAHA... I know this is not enough but it's what I can do... for now. XoXo

math.. yukh

Today I was helping maryama study for her math test... haram it's ma c.. so hard, but you can do it hayati AJA AJA HWAIITING!!... Anyhhoo thought I would post some picss, enjoooy!!

Harry and the party is a nono

So yeah I guess Harry's pub and the party are cancelled... just got a text saying that christian is working early and everything has to get cancelled.. So I'm making new plans by myself... hm.. ideas??

100 swedish visitors

100 visitors from sweden!! This is a cause for celebration hehe:D:D COMBEEE!!!

Good Luck Bebis, Mahdi & Kadde

Tomorrow my bebis, my ahbal mahdi and kadde are having a math test and I was just helping them study.. All I can say is that I have the smartest cousin; mahdi is so good in math and he doesn't really need my help but he just likes having someone there when he studies, hehe ahla mahdi walla;)... Now mahdi and bebis went to the pizzeria to by some things before the juve game starts... yukh we're so nervous... I really hope they win, they have to.. this is a really important game and this time I'm not gonna miss it :D wooohho... instead I'm watching it with ahla mahdi w ahla bebis... FORZA JUVE ~~ JUVE FOR LIFE

Closest person

Whats upp?? .. so this post isn't for me to post my daily thoughts... This time I want every reader, even the silent readers (reads but doesnt comment), to name the person whose closest to them.. and describe the person in qeustion... So comment on...

3id ghadir mubarak

3id ghadir mubarak everyone... I had wanted to say this before twelve o'clock but I wasn't home so anyhoo better late then never.. take what you can geet ouri fans:P:P

On this day the prophet Muhammad said (amongst other things): "I'm the city of knowledge and Ali is the gate". This is the day that he declared Imam Ali (as) as his successor... A great day indeed.. xoxo

Thnxx Mohamed

Mohamed just called me unique... Behold and treasure this moment; I have a believer:D It's a hallelujah moment:P
Mohamed just texted me and informed me about what I have been trying to tell people for ages, THAT I'M UNIQUE... I was like, hmm tell me what's new.. like duuuh course me am unique muahaha... XoXo

Movie night

Late movie night with friends is always a blast and tonight was no exception... Me, noona, maryama, nushin, kadde, maya and in the end also mahdi watched confessions of a shopaholic.. it was actually my second time watching it and it was as much fun as the first.. Haha me and nushin understood what the girl was going through... anyhoo I would give this movie 3 out of 5... xoxo

Movie of the day: Confessions of a shopaholic

Foza Juve(L)

I missed the game.. all the guys took the livingroom and and I was stuck waiting to hear when they scream (either out of jjoy or anger) ... Anyhoo WE WOOOON!! Wohoooo!!!! Take that inter you little tweebs:P:P:P:P FORZA JUVE (L) FORZA DELPIERO

Tötä kadde n me having fun

Sitting with ouri baby tötää and kadde listening to justin bieber.. Yuup I think tötä is in love haha:P:P ... Lalala love me love me say that you love me :P:P (his songs are A-masing)

Song of the day: love me by justin bieber

Party and Blackout.. life is goood:P

Whaaats uup all my crazyy readers? Is life treating you as well as it's treating me?
Well, yesterday a lot of things happened... Appearently I'm invited to a party next week and to Harrys pub in uddevalla. Gonna be soo much fuun :D
A really crazy thing that happened yesterday was that the whole city had a black out.. all electricity went off and suddenly I felt as if I was in lebanon... haha me and Jandi started creating theories as to why it went off. Then crazy jandi told me to get up to print our essays from the computer
Jandi: Let's go print
Me: No we can't, hello? (pointing at the lamp, indicating that the electricity is off)
Jandi: (still crazy) Whaat?
Me: The electricity is off, yaaaaa
Jandi: Oh, silly me hehe
LOL this girl is the smartest retard I have evaaa met... :P:P
Anyways I also saw sarsooor whom I miss more each day.. tc sarsoor, really hoping everything works out the way you want it (L) mwaaaah

Life

Life is most of the times a big mess. Things that are beyond our control happen – whether we like it or not. Heartbreaking, hilarious, humiliating; these are things that are bound to happen. That's life and there's no use trying to avoid these kind of things to happen... It's better to prepare ourselves for when they come.

I wish I could share evrything with you without any boundaries, I wish I could tell you about my first heartbreaking story, my many hilarious and humiliating moments; simply I wish I could tell you everything from the moment I can remeber until now. If I would do so maybe you would feel better about your own life or maybe it would make you roll your eyes thinking that you've been through worse. But I can't just yet, I'm not ready to talk about everything that's happened to me but one day I will be and then you will be the first to hear them, every story that I have to tell; even the ones that only I know of, stories I haven't told a single soul about yet.

:(

Is this what it came down to? The chock is still in me and I don't know what to do.. never in a million years did I think that this would happen... ottokaji? I need to stop letting people in, i need to stop giving the best of myself

Me so nuts

Today was a lot of fun, haha I was shopping for mens purfume and people thought I was nuts... well I guess I am but that's what me loves haha.. anyways tomorrow I don't have any classes but still I'm going there anyways to meet namoose and have some choko at espresso house. XoXo

Taking his last breath

"Have you ever seen someone taking his last breath?" He said to me and I brushed off the question, wanting to change the subject. I didn't want to talk about it but ever since then I've been thinking about it more then ever, how I was sitting there witnessing someone who was like my second dad taking his last breath. Every time I remember it I get chills and tears start to run down my face.

My aunties husband died in cancer a couple of months ago and I was there as his illness was taking the life of the strongest, most willfull man I had ever met. This man was someone whom everybody looked up to and I couldn't ever imagine a life without being able to have him as a neighbor, without being able to see him all the time. The time came when I got the news that there wasn't a chance for him and I broke down, falling on the floor crying, not knowing how to get up. The only thing that gave me strength was that I had to be strong and go tell this to his kids who were in school. How was I going to tell maryama, kadde and nonna these news? I had to be strong enough for their sake. I told them and we went to guthenburg to stay by his side.

The next morning I went there again but I decided to stay at the hospital this time. And I wasn't the only one, his whole family and almost all his friends wanted to stay by his side. We were about a hundred people filling the hospital and when I remember this I think about how many people he was loved by... How many people who respected him and wanted to be by his side. He was truly loved. As his last moments came to en end I just wanted to die, it was an experience I don't wish upon anyone. Not only did I witness someone taking his last breath but I witnessed my uncle who meant the world to me taking it.

3ammo allah yor7amak w ya3te el 2ewiye la 3ayltak ...